see, I knew I'm gonna like you

Tired. Seriously this is like the only word coming to my mind right now...
Maybe it's the weather, the atmosphere or the fact we're going out every night :) And even though I could sleep right now, I don't want to because I always feel like I'm going to miss something while sleeping.
Well, the last two days have been pretty warm & sunny (so not typical for England) so we were quite lucky! Yesterday was our first day of school - which starts btw at 9.30 (in Switzerland at 7.20) - and it was quite fun. We were tested in our levels of English and then got divided into different classes. For me the most interesting fact is that there are so many different nationalities. Only in our  class there are already people from Russia, Korea, Germany, Italy, Venezuela, Spain, Switzerland and Libya. It is also very interesting to talk to them. There's for example the guy from Libya whom I talked...
He's been here now for 9 months and is happy to be here since he also wants to study medicine in England. But the thing is, even if he wanted, he wouldn't be able to go home. And this made me feel quite sad for him. Imagine, you're in a different country, without family, without your friends from home and you don't know if you'll ever be able to go home again because of the political situation in your country... This must be hard I guess. In situations like this I'm really glad to live in such a safe country as Switzerland is.
But however, we already made friends with two very nice girls from Belgium. I like that they are very open-minded and seem to like the same stuff we do ;) So we went out to the cinema last night watching 'Bad Teacher'. I doubt that I've ever seen such a cool cinema. It's quite old and does more look like a theatre than a cinema but I reeeeeally liked it! Since after the cinema we didn't want to go home right away we went to a bar. Everyone here told us we would need to be 18 to go to Pubs & drink alcohol but somehow it worked for us ;) Well anyway, it is really going on a lot up here... Probably this is the reason I'm that tired (which I hope is going to change in the next few days!)

© CK

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come on in, sweetie

Five weeks is a long time. The longest time I've ever been away from home. But still I'm glad to be away, because this is what I needed right now. Just leave all the stress behind me and enjoy life. 

We arrived in London yesterday & were brought to our host families then. I was a bit scared first. What if my host family is weird or very strict?

But as soon as I arrived all these doubts were gone. "Come on in, sweetie" was the first thing my host mom said and that made me feel very comfortable:) However my host family is loooooooovely (and seriously I haven't heard this word that much within 12 hours ever before)! There's Claudia(the mom), Paul(the dad), Issy(the 11year old daughter) and Theo(the 10 year old son). The cutest thing was Claudia telling my that for my stay here, they're my family & this is my home. It's so comforting to know I'm welcome here!

The first thing I did was to try an English tea, which was reeeally delicious ;) In the evening my friends and I decided to go out, getting to know the city a bit (we're even talking English to each other, which I'm very proud of ;))  Even if it wasn't very warm but veeery windy, it is FABULOUS.

Right now the sun's coming out and we're going to the city&beach later.

If there was one word that is in my mind I had to choose it would be 'freedom'. I haven't felt this free for a long time...

I LOVE WORTHING!

© CK

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T.G.I.F

Thaaaaanks God It's Friday!
Which means only 17 hours and I'm on my way to Worthing, England. I'm sooooo excited!! We're doing a language stay with our class, so 5 other girls & I will stay in Worthing for four weeks. And the most exciting: I'm staying a week longer with my best girls & we're going to LOOOOONDON a whooole week!!! :)))
Anyway I intend to write like a diary (on my blog) during my stay there... Doesn't mean I'm writing every day but I hope I'll find time to write a lot.
My teacher told us to have the time of our lives there which I think it definitely will be. Lately I've been feeling very stressed & irritated and all I need right now is holiday... So for me it just comes perfectly :) But instead of keep on writing right now I'd better go finish packing ;)

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words I never said

Fear is such a weak emotion thats why I despise it
We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth
So scared of what you think of me, I’m scared of even telling you
Sometimes I’m like the only person I feel safe to tell it to

Have you ever had thoughts you'd been afraid to tell anyone? Like, if you told them they wouldn't understand, they'd get it the wrong way. Somehow this is the reason why I started this blog... There are days I really don't wanna talk about my feelings but just write them down. For when it comes to feelings I'm a really bad talker. In my head I know exactly what I want to say but it just comes out completely the wrong way, or worse: it doesn't come out at all.
So why is there this fear to tell another person what you think, what you feel, what you wish for? Is it the fear of their reactions or the fear they don't get it the right way?
Also, you don't wanna seem weak in front of the others, do you? Maybe these are all reasons why there are things we keep for ourselves. Because seriously, not everyone has to know about every little insecurity, every doubt or every tear. Sometimes, yes, I am afraid to talk about something. But sometimes I just don't wanna talk.
Even if this means I'll regret it afterwards? Wish I had talked about it...
Sometimes I really do regret the words I never said but maybe one day I will, maybe one day is the right time. And if not... it'll have its accuracy, things still happen for a reason, right?




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it's the closest thing we have to magic, LOVE

© CK

I love my mom for being the one who always finds the right words when I'm desperate

I love my dad for being the one who gave me back my self-esteem when I'd lost it

I love F for being the one who I can tell everything to, without being judged

I love J for being the one who understands me without words

I love A for being the one who smiles at me and makes me feel like nothing can go wrong

I love my boyfriend for being the one who made me fall in love again

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Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine,
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life,
And start to try, cause it's your time,
Time to fly.

All your worries, leave them somewhere else,

Find a dream you can follow,
Reach for something, when there's nothing left,
And the world's feeling hollow.

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Today I was feeling like listening to some old songs of my childhood... I just love that. It's so fun to remember how I was dancing through the room with the music on full volume and just enjoying life with no difficulties :)

So this is the reason why I've just listened to Fly by Hilary Duff - which I hadn't for years, unfortunately!! Because I still think it's a beautiful song and especially the lyrics have always captured me.

We should concentrate more often on the good things in life and enjoy it. Our time is now 'cause nobody knows what tomorrow brings. What if you don't get the chance to live to see it?

So don't hide behind a disguise just open up and be true to who you are. Then you might - no, you WILL - see the beauty of life.

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